I wrote Jon a letter. That is all that I needed; now my words and feelings are there for him to consider and my mind is more at ease knowing that I have officially let my guard down to possibly bring back the person that I love.
My friend Shelby and I woke up this morning and decided to have a picnic, so we went down to a restuarant I worked at for a few years to pick up some sandwiches and take them to the "secret spot." Well, on our way, we decided to kidnap our friend Connor, so we drove back to Carlsbad to get him :)
We went to the "secret spot" that Jon showed me back in February and had so much fun! We shared our sandwiches and curly fries with Connor and hung out for a little bit taking embarrassing pictures of each other and watching people down on the beach try to surf. Apparently we were tresspassing? And the police kicked us out :( but we decided to walk around Encinitas for a little longer. The weather couldn't have been more perfect and we just had a good time all together. I absolutely love the fact that I am reuniting all of us friends now that we are all in better stages in our lives!!
Today was a very good day for me.. my mind is finally relieved of all the feelings and thoughts that I was having about this situation with Jon and now he has them written down in his hands. Even though I would much rather see him in person, having him know how I feel is just so much better than not.
While Shelby and I were picking up our food this afternoon at T's, I was talking to my old manager and she asked if I had a boyfriend these days... when I told her that we were on hold for now and I'm not sure where it's going to go, she asked why and I told her. What she told me really hit my heart hard and made me feel very confident about this:
"Don't give up, just love."
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