Brilliant!

I have heard so many mixed opinions toward the movie Brokeback Mountain but had never seen it until just now and my goodness, it has to be one of the most brilliant love stories I have ever seen. I could watch it a million times and never get sick of it. Absolutely a huge fan.
Watching movies with Heath Ledger always makes me forget that he passed away especially because of how alive he still is in the way people talk about him and how amazing he was as an actor.
Anyway, I fell in love with the movie and had to write about it!

Sleep?

Do you ever wonder what it is that keeps you awake at night on those nights that you just cant seem to get to sleep? I do.. I think it is strange because, for one, I had a long day. I ran around and played soccer, wrestled with my mom and brothers, walked to downtown Carlsbad for coffee, and shopped around for 4 hours. When I came home from shopping I was so ready for bed.. and yet I am still awake and it is 3:15AM. I watched a movie and usually, I will fall asleep during a movie late at night, but I watched the whole thing without drifting out once. And what am I doing now? Listening to my playlist, texting an old friend, and well, blogging. And I still dont feel sleep creeping up on me.

But I wonder what it is that is keeping me awake. When this happens, I tend to think a lot.. or get really creative and want to draw or paint something. But in this case it was thinking, and I was thinking about some of the people I havent seen or talked to in so long.. One person in particular, lets call him Peter, was on my mind most, just becuase he used to be one of dearest friends and it has been over a year since I have even talked to him. So as I was thinking about how Peter is doing, up pops an instant message from him. Weird. And now we are catching up and sharing stories. These are the kinds of things I wonder about.. Not the cheesy "oh so and so was thinking about me too," but like if I wasnt awake so stinkin late, maybe I wouldnt have been able to catch up with Peter. And it could be anything. Maybe I will all the sudden think of a Bible verse that will mean something, see something on Facebook that I didnt know about lol, maybe I will realize something or get the urge to write, or something like this; being able to catch up with someone I miss.

I dont know why, I just think it is interesting. One thing I am not looking forward to because of my mind not wanting to sleep yet is that I will probably sleep in really late and have a short day tomorrow. Lol.

X Marks the Spot.

X.CALIFORNIA. I have been home now for about 2 weeks and it hasnt been so bad. It has acually been quite fun.
So far I have applied at a few jobs, got a summer job at Juicy Couture, a nannying job starting in 2011, and a possible assistant job in LA for a commercial :)
Last night I went to the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows movie premier and LOVED it! So good. I went with an old friend and we had a very fun time :)
Tonight I get to see my beautiful small group for the first time since September 5th and they are taking me out to a welcome home dinner <3

Oregon is a place that I am absolutely in love with and I know that I will be back someday, but it is all up to God. His plans are much much more powerful than mine and I know that they will bring me happiness. As for now, he has brought me back home to my family and friends who are very important to me and who I am happy to be with.

California Bound, Again.

It sucks when things dont turn out the way planned.. its really sad but at least I know that I gave it a chance. I love Bend so much and I am going to come back, definitely, but Im coming back to Carlsbad and I will start another journey soon. God has a plan for me and I know everything will work out..