Two

It's been two months since Jon and I broke up and I feel like I'm over it at times... But sometimes I still feel a little break in my heart. One that is enough to make me cry. But like I said, most of the time I feel fine. I feel like he was ages ago. Like he is a distant memory but sometimes he seems like the freshest memory I carry.
Today I took my friend to MiraCosta to take her placement tests and while I was waiting for her I ran to some stores to run some errands. I stopped at Jamba Juice for a smoothie and when I got there I saw that this girl I knew was working. I met her because she is Jon's friend Carlos' girlfriend. When my drink was up I said hi to her and she asked if I was still talking to Jon. It was the first time someone who doesn't already know what happened had asked about him... But I answered well telling her that we ended our relationship 2 months ago and she immediately drew back, covered her mouth and said "oh my gosh Hill I'm so sorry..."
Sometimes I don't know how to feel about it all but I know that the only way I can feel is to move past it. To continue with my life and to appreciate that Jon changed my life for the better. He helped me find myself and to love who I am. When I am not thinking of what we are now, I am happy. I guess gettin over someone happens in phases.