Transparent

Sometimes it's irritating how much mothers can see about their kids.

For whatever reason, I was really sad today. My mind was filled with memories of Jon.. and that hasn't happened to me in a really long time. I felt really lonely when I woke up today and my eyes were filled with tears the whole morning. Then, as I was driving to the store, I found myself crying.. and same when I got back home.

For the past 2 hours, I've been fine, just relaxing and listening to music. I got sad for like... 15 seconds when a specific song came on shuffle.. but I got over it. Then, about 2 minutes later, after I haven't seen her all day, my mom came in my room to tell me goodbye because she is leaving for the night. Right as soon as she was walking out my door she stopped, turned around and said, "I feel like you're sad. Are you okay?" Gee, sometimes I just feel transparent. Like no matter what I try to portray on the outside, I'm just as obvious as a sad little kid.